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AUTHOR: malemetal   and translated from English to English by haruno21

TITLE: “One Thousand questions…Just one answer”   

FANDOM: KAT-TUN
PAIRING: KoKame (Kamenashi kazuya/Tanaka Koki)
GENRE: angst, some fluff
RATING: apto para todo publico CHChable, so distant.
; ; , CH TMLXC Honestly I do not get it, HAVING you so close and at the Same time so distant ... so distant That You CAN NOT hear my screams, Those Which say I want you madly and passionately Those Which say I need you, I love you. I always Wonderer

why not could you hear me, you cared so little, I Thought You Belong to someone else heart and I Thought That You Hated Me, That You Could not Stand Being around me, and I Thought I Thought I Could But Not find the answer, and when i found one it scared me, I Decided to ignore it, afraid I Was The Fact That you did not love me true WAS, I WAS afraid of your rejection I Was Afraid That You Did not talk to me , Did not look at me I Was Afraid That You Moved form my side, I Was Afraid. I still remember That day, cold, gray, dark, lonely and rainy. I felt bad, I had a hole in my soul That Did not allow me to think Clearly, I Was alone and sad and the only think I Could think of WAS Being in your arms, Because I Knew Those arms Would Protect me, I hoped Those arms Would Protect Me Against all evil, They will make sure I Had no problem, They Will. But They Were Not There to Protect Me, I Was Alone, and They Will not be with Knowing Me, Knowing You Will not be there with me tie up my soul, my conscience, my reason, everything. everything was lost I Thought I Had Thought nothing

sense anymore ...

I hope Needed desperately, an illusion of you ... I need you and that's why I Look For You, Did not leave my thoughts alone, I need to know if you cared about me I Need to Know Why You Grew apart day after day I Need to make thing clear, I need to tell you how I felt, how much I need you, I need you by my side, only by my side, I need to tell you how much I love you ...

At That moment I Did not care about anything, I Did not care about the rain, the darkness, solitude Not Even That I'm so afraid of, Because for your love I can do anything, I can Overcome Any fear tormenting me, I can do anything you ask me, the only thing I want from you is stay by your side, That you do not leave me, That you love me, like I dimits ... Then why not could I continue?

WAS destiny So strong and so against my love for You That Did not leave me continue?

I do not care, I do not care if the world, fate or whatever WAS Against Me I'll Fight Until the end.

Then why I Can not Reach You?



Is it my love for you definitely impossible?




I refuse, I refuse to accept it.

Then, why?

Why I can not find the answer?

I remember
every detail, that hole in my heart becoming bigger and bigger, destroying me little by little I started to give up and when I did it I cried, I cried with all my heart because I realized I was alone that you were not with me and that I tried, I tried to look for shelter in you, I swear I tried, but I couldn’t make it


Or that's what I thought…

I was alone kneeling in the ground, soaked, destroyed without you and with tears in my eyes falling non-stop, my sadness was bigger than my pride, so I decided not stop crying under the rain. Or that’s what I thought…

Suddenly the rain stopped hitting my weak body
Why?
Why the rain stopped falling over me? If I could still hear the tears from heaven falling, Why?...

“Are you ok?” I heard…
“ Hey answer what’s wrong?”
I looked up and I couldn’t believe it, I couldn’t believe what I had in front of my eyes after all fate wasn’t against me or my feelings…

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"Kame Hey, are you ok?
Why are you here? Why are you here alone and soaked? "

I Could not Understand Why I Did not hear you, only I see you with a worried look, a sad look ... Then
Understood why the rain I Did not make me wet anymore, Because You Were There, crouching, Covering worried me with your umbrella, Preventing bad Something Happened To Me, You Were There Protecting me from the rain, You Are There Protecting Me

d that’s was more than enough…

 
I remember every detail, we went to you home, together under the same umbrella, was a unique moment and the only thing I wanted was that moment never ended but my prayers were not listened and the rain stopped and the distance between our bodies grew and I looked down...

 

We get to your house, we were alone and soaked, you put on some music I don't remember which, I was too nervous...
  

"Changep;

“

What do you want?” He said I looked at him surprised, after all, he had understood my feelings …

 

”The person you love grows apart from you and you feel powerless and not able to do anything?”

I just looked at him, but why did he talk as if he were talking about himself?

He continued

 

with the bottle on my hand, looking down, disappointed, I Had Planned So Many Times this moment and I think It Could not Be More Different "I hates me" I Thought and with reason, I have trusted me, Took Me Into His house, dressed me and I DARED events to tell me the owner of Who Was His heart and I did not allow himto do it, for my Selfishness, my jealousy.

I Approach Me, Surely he'll kick me out as if I were a sick dog, Not Even That, Because if I were I Would leave me in But It Was not me It Was sick dog, a selfish, insecure boy who Showing WAS afraid of how much I loved him.

...

&XC Why I can not understand? It wasn't true? Was I dreaming? Was I dead? Or not? At That moment I Did not Understand I Heard Those Words only over and over again so strong, so full of feelings, so sincere, so full of love.

I Thought it Was a fantasy, But Not I Heard it, Then why I Did not Understand ... Why?

I turn to try to understand.

WAS His forehead resting on my shoulder. When

... Since When looking at historical head Nothing was resting on my shoulder? ... Since When He Had His eyes closed ...? Since

stood, I understood why his name was incomplete in my mouth…

 

His lips… Those soft, love filled lips were on mine. His lips didn’t let me speak, but it didn’t care. At that moment I felt like dying, but it was not like that, at that moment I felt so many things, I just felt and felt. You gave me the most beautiful kiss someone can give, the most tender kiss that ever existed, the kiss most full of love someone can feel, that kiss, his kiss, my kiss
OUR kiss. I closed my eyes and understood everything, I understood the expression on his face When I cried for him That day, I Understood That hug in the rain, I Understood why I Grew apart, I UNDERSTAND why I look down Taking When I started or tried, I Understood everything, or maybe I Understood nothing.

But I loves me and I love him, and That Can Not Be Denied, No One Can Deny That our love and eternal kiss ...
or That's What I Thought ...

"... MEEE"

I open my eyes slowly, Not Completely

“KAAAAAAAAAAMMMMEEEEEEEE”

 

I finally saw, it was him, the person I love the most, it was him…

Tanaka Koki  

 

“Open your eyes”

“Such a cold thing to say after a sweet kiss”
I said in a weak voice

I Moved away slowly, I raised my head I WAS sitting on a chair on a studio, I did not understand. Those words never exist? And the silence? And the kiss?

It Was Only a beautiful dream?

I do not know, But There Is Something I do know, That I Understand and I Understand and I know Because Every time I see you walking away My heart pounds and your prescence draws a smile on my face Everything changed, the escenary, the clothes, the situation changed ... Everything

Everything except my love for you and I will tell you my feelings someday,

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I remember it as if it Was Yesterday, How I Could Possibly Forget That day, how I Could Forget That situation, Those Words, That Feeling ... I remember Every detail, atmosphere, sound, and events the silence, That That silence deafened me Sometimes, That silence, That made me feel happiness, confusion, Insecurity, fear and peace, That silence That Said It All, That That silence Took control over words, That silence That allowed me to hear the beat of my own heart, thsp; Honestly I do not get it, HAVING you so close and at the Same time so distant ... so distant That You CAN NOT hear my screams, Those Which say I want you madly and passionately Those Which say I need you, I love you. I always Wonderer why not could you hear me, you cared so little, I Thought You Belong to someone else heart and I Thought That You Hated Me, That You Could not Stand Being around me, and I Thought I Thought I Could But Not find the answer, and when i found one it scared me, I Decided to ignore it, afraid I Was The Fact That you did not love me true WAS, I WAS afraid of your rejection I Was Afraid That You Did not talk to me , Did not lookAt Me I Was Afraid That You Moved form my side, I Was Afraid. I still remember That day, cold, gray, dark, lonely and rainy. I felt bad, I had a hole in my soul That Did not allow me to think Clearly, I Was alone and sad and the only think I Could think of WAS Being in your arms, Because I Knew Those arms Would Protect me, I hoped Those arms Would Protect Me Against all evil, They will make sure I Had no problem, They Will. But They Were Not There to Protect Me, I Was Alone, and They Will not be with Knowing Me, Knowing You Will not be there with me tie up my soul, my conscience, my reason, everything. everything was lost I Thought I Had Thought nothing

sense anymore ...

CHTMLwant from you is stay by your side, that you don't leave me, that you love me, like I do. The rain did not stop, it became stronger, it tried to prevent me from reaching you, but I didn’t care, It did not matter how many obstacles there were, I’ll overcome all… or at least that’s what I thought…

But it was not like that, the rain beat me down, that damned rain and the pain which became stronger I could not understand.

Why…?

Why I have to be so weak?

So weak was my love for you…? CHTMLiness and now my tears full of pain Were full of happiness now, Saying your name in a loud voice Was Enough for me because i felt you Understood it all and my Fears Came back because i saw in your face That You Understood it all, you Moved Thought your hand and I'll leave me, But at That moment Because I Did not care for a moment and just for a moment you protected me for a moment you only got worried for a moment, That eternal moment for all you Understood .


leave But you Did not and What you did ...
I Could Have Died at That moment but I'm grateful to fate Because It That Brought Us Together and rainy and sad day Did not leave me die.

You Hugged me, my body WAS Surrounded by your strong and Protective and arms and you told me ...

"Do not worry, cry all you want, I'm here with you, and I will stay All You Need, I will not go "

I Could Have Died, But I Would Have Done It happy Because You Told Me You Were By My Side That You Will not leave me ... you Hugged me and I Hugged you with strength and love and you fall left the umbrella That protected us from the rain,MLXC "Something like that"




"Ah"

I said no more, Took over silence, a deafening, eternal silence.

"Koki, I ... I ..."

I Could, I Could not say it. Why?

I just look at me, I Said nothing inside me and I prey you interrupted me, But I Did not

"I was crying, Because the person I .... That I ..."
Not again decided words come out of my mouth…
 
“ What do you want?”
He said I looked at him surprised, after all, he had understood my feelings
…
 

”The person you love grows apart from you and you feel powerless and not able to do anything?”
I just looked at him, but why did he talk as if he were talking about himself? He continued
CHTMLand, But It Was inevitable
"I understand, I know how you feel"


I Look at him, I hoped I Had Could read my look That begger I stopped, I did not want to listen ... everything but What He Was about to say.

"I understand because i ..."

"STOP!"

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“I love you”…

 

 

  There was silence. I couldn`t understand, I don’t remember, silence came back, but it was not the silence which deafened me and destroying me, it was different, time stopped, I stopped breathing or at least that was what I felt, I don’t remember. What happened? What was that feeling? Who said it? It was me? Or maybe?...

CHTMMLXC I closed my eyes and Understood everything, I Understood the expression on His face when i cried for him That day, I Understood That hug in the rain, I Understood why I Grew apart, I UNDERSTAND why I Looked Down When I started Taking or tried, I Understood everything, or maybe I Understood nothing. But I loves me and I love him, and That Can Not Be Denied, No One Can Deny That our love and eternal kiss ...

or That's What I Thought ...

"... MEEE"

I open my eyes slowly, NOT

I Said in a weak voice


"Eh? What are you talking about? I've Trying to wake you up for ages and you show no vital signs, Come on wake up and stop talking non sense we're waiting for you "

I Looked at him disoriented ...

"Come on we're late for the photoshoot and thanks toou "

I Moved away slowly, I raised my head I WAS sitting on a chair on a studio, I did not understand. Those words never exist? And the silence? And the kiss? It Was Only a beautiful dream?

I do not know, But There Is Something I do know, That I Understand and I Understand and I know Because Every time I see you walking away My heart pounds and your prescence draws a smile on my face Everything changed, the escenary, the clothes, the situation changed ... Everything
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But you knew I was not going to ignore for long ...
I searched ... when you know I'm tired ...

of everything ... and all ... know I'm exhausted by many reasons ... you understand me because they like me ... but you know that both were wrong ...

I will not justify what I said ... but it I want to justify what you did ... Again, you and mand you know ... so that you do ... if you know that anger me ...

You know because I was so ... you know that it is beyond me ...

You took me asshole ... and that's not I could ignore ... I were looking at me the way ... I laughed in the face ... and you know that I am not wrong in what I'm saying ...
I'm wrong ... but you well ...
And just as I would regret ... goodor do you also ...
This is not a war of pride ...
is just looking at it like it is ...
Admit it like it is ...
Nothing more ...

But myself I can not ...
You already know what you think ...
If I am wrong in my attitudes, I say or do,


Do not get to my level and do the same, corregime ...I n is only ours ... and I repeat ... of two ... not three, or four or individual ... in this case know that my selfishness is valid ...
You know what I think about it & hellip , "you know I do not like they get ...
You know what bothers me people are saying to yourself, think for yourself, and do things for you ...
If you know that bothers me more than two can ...
And you know specifically why it bothers me ... but I say no I know what you sabes ... because I know ...
You know I do not get the same response from those parties who do not want to stop getting my third ...
You know that those opinions of others were wrong ...
You know ...
And you know you were wrong to leave and continue to let those opinions do not stray outside ...
I believed anything I said although it was not well ...
But I'm human too ... that is patientthe right way ...
But I think this showed you something ...
I know it's selfish ... but I'm selfish ...
And you know that I will not to change ...
Or at least not for now ...


You know I am ... I to you I asked for time ...
Cause you know I do not know operate in this environment ...
's new and above all things &C You know all this not because I feel like I
You know how much I feel these days ...
And if it bothers you ... well then what sorry ...
Because it is not what else to do ...

You know why I'm writing this ...
You know what you really meant ...
Because I know you're going to read, because although I will not deny that these carefully to what I do, write, read, think or feel & h